Pasture A: Being Alone Can Be Tricky

...and I don't mean alone as in not having a soul around you. I mean alone as in not being able to find yourself in a good emotional place for a relationship.

Acceptance. This is also another thing that makes us crazy.

Some people can adapt easily... like chameleons... they blend in, they adapt, they don't protest. Others, fight to the death to find themselves back in that now lost comfort zone. And finally, others roll with the punches until becoming absolutely exhausted. The latter group of people don't always end up accepting entirely the new terms of their existence, but rather become exhausted and instead of wanting to continue trying to walk through a rocky mountain, they decide to go around it. That's the group I'm focusing on.

It's tricky to accept that no matter how bad you want something, you may not be ready for it. Yes! It is possible, and yes, this can happen. How do you accept it? How do you not only recognize a bad situation, or a not so bad situation, or better yet, a good situation, and admit to yourself that you're just not ready for it? How do you go from wanting it so bad, and KNOWING that you're no good for it at the moment-- yet you can't shake off what you feel and keep moving on your own?

I honestly wish I had the answer. Having recently placed myself in that third group of loser fuckers, I'm honestly out of luck and out of explanations.

I do know one thing, though.

If it's for you, it ain't going anywhere. Work for it, work hard. Be patient. Improve yourself. Fight. And be grateful that rolling with the punches has only bruised you a bit, nothing more.